Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Holidays, Light Weeks and Giving Yourself Grace

The past few weeks have been rough. The holidays, in general, are rough, but especially rough when you're trying to lose weight/get healthy. I haven't had time to work out like I normally do or to meal plan and I feel like I eat a ton of sugar every day. I've also gained a few pounds back thanks to all of the above. But I've been reminded lately to give myself some grace.

Last night, I went to yoga for the first time in a few weeks. I never thought that I would miss something like I do yoga. I missed the stretching and the workout, but I also missed the break. I missed being able to let go and just focus on me for an hour. And let's be real, I missed savasana.

I was thinking about today's blog post while waiting for class to start and thought about how I needed to start giving myself some grace.  Grace for not working out every day, for eating some of the cookie dough while making cookies for the exchange, for drinking eggnog with whiskey (and lots of it). It must be true because my instructor started class talking about letting go, honoring where you are in your journey and that where you are now is where you are supposed to be.

Whoa. Talk about needing something and God talking to you. And through yoga of all things!

I've been beating myself up. I've felt fat, like I haven't made the progress that I wanted to make. Some days, I feel like I'm the girl in the mirror from January. The girl I hated, that I was embarrassed I let myself get back to. I feel like I'm back at square one, where I started a year ago. On those days, I have to remind myself of where I am and honor it.

I have to remind myself that my 'light weeks' are now working out 4 days instead of 5 or 6, whereas before it was one or no days instead of 2 or 3.

I have to remind myself that while I might fall out of tree (still), I just did half moon without a block or touching the floor last night.

I have to remind myself that while it doesn't feel like a lot of change, I've come a heck of a long way. I actually miss working out when I don't go! I eat healthier (not including the holidays) and I'm down a clothing size. I have to remind myself to look at my monthly update blog posts to see how far I've come. This stuff is hard and sometimes, it's enough to make you want to give up. But I don't.

Where I am is where I'm supposed to be. That's what I needed to hear last night. I'm doing this. This journey isn't like any of the others I've been on. It's not like anyone else's and neither is yours. I'm also convinced that God is trying to teach me patience (again) with it. I think that's an endless journey of his! So if you've been hard on yourself lately, give yourself some grace. Remember where you came from and be proud of where you are. Take it from a yogi - where you are is where you are supposed to be.


4 comments:

  1. This time of year we can get caught up in the hustle and bustle of life. I hope you can stay on track of exercise and eating healthy!
    xo, Lee

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  2. I feel like God is always trying to teach me patience too! Good read especially for this time of the year :)

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  3. I absolutely love this post and needed to hear it myself. There are so many different things we can beat ourselves up for - but we don't have to do that! We can always choose grace. Thanks for this reminder!! <3

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  4. I love this. It's so hard to eat well and stay on track during the holidays.

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