Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Measuring Success - 5/31/17

Some months are wonderful. Some months are rough. And this was a rough month.

When I started writing this, I really struggled with something good to write. As much as I was happy with my progress last month, I was that unhappy with it this month. I know that it's mostly on me because we haven't eaten as healthily as we should. I've kept up with my gym routine, but not my food routine. We also traveled a lot and weddinged (I made that a word) a lot. I gained about 5 pounds since the last time I weighed myself (about two weeks ago). And my measurements increased. I also know that I should be really happy with where I'm at.

But I'm not. And I think it's okay to say that. It's okay to be frustrated with where you are. If you haven't been here, then you either will be soon or you just haven't been honest with yourself.  It's called a journey because it isn't something that you just conquer and move on. Sometimes you conquer it, sometimes it conquers you. Sometimes you have amazing months and sometimes you have big setbacks. In the end, it's how you move forward, how you keep going. So while this month has been beyond frustrating, I'm going to find some good things in it. Because this is not going to conquer me. 

Sigh. Big ol' sigh. 

But I did have some wins. So here they are:

I ran three miles. I have only done that once before. And my timing was awesome. Two miles were under 13 minutes, one just over. 

I fit into a skirt I haven't seen in years. YEARS! I've been fitting in size 12 jeans and other stretchy bottoms, but this is the first straight, non-giving article I have worn. That was pretty amazing.

When I look at these two wins, I'm proud. I have a long way to go, but I know that I've also come a long way. I never thought I'd be able to say that I ran three miles. Last night I went to spin class and killed it. I felt really good. So while I've been set back a little, it hasn't been all that detrimental to me.

Here's my side by side comparison from last month. Weirdly, the one on the right looks a little tighter in the middle, but that could just be my posture. But I don't look worse! And that's what matters!

So if you've had a rough month, I hope you can find some wins. It's not always about what the scale says, though we all know that we do care what it says. But there is always something to be proud of, something that you weren't able to do before. That's what you focus on until you get back to the good place. Here's to June and finding my good place again!

1 comment:

  1. I love your honesty in this post. My food habits have also been out of whack this month, which I blame on weddings and events, and my desire for convenience. But some moths are just like that. Good for our for finding the silver lining. Those are some pretty awesome wins!