Thursday, June 15, 2017

Finding the Zen in My Life

Off and on for the past few weeks, I've thought about my life and where it's landed in some shape or form. It hasn't been a big "a-ha!" moment, but rather lots of little ones that came together. And I've come to the conclusion that I love where I am at in life right now. I really, truly do. I think I've found the zen.

I don't know that you hit this point very often. Where you look on multiple aspects and think, "Man, this is good!" I always feel blessed in what we have and what we've been afforded, but there is a level of contentment right now that I really don't know that I can do justice to. But I'm going to try. 

I love my job. Not every moment of every day. There are many moments during the day where I'm stressed or feeling like I might pull my hair out. But when I step back and look at it, I have a cool job. I get to help people find a home. I get to help make home happen for people that might not be able to do so otherwise. So when I read these networking marketing people (more power to you, nothing against you, I promise) that say "what if you didn't have to work your traditional job?" or "what if you didn't have to miss this?" I have found myself thinking, "But I like my job." At the end of the day, selling skincare or wraps or even Jamberry (which I did) isn't going to bring me the satisfaction that working in community development does.  Because there is nothing like home. 

We're in a good, good place. We both work for the City we live in. November will make two years living here. I've worked in the City for about 2.5 years. My husband hit his one-year mark on Wednesday. Before that he drove a truck all over North Carolina, sometimes pulling 14 hour days. I was a consultant and didn't do much better. Now we're City employees. I go to the gym 6 days a week. I leave work at a decent hour. So does he. We actually see each other. What?! And he just passed his Grade II Wastewater test. I'm so proud of him. We're in a good place physically and mentally.  

I love the gym. I love pouring sweat and watching it come off me in rivers. Things I never thought I would say. I love pushing myself. I love that moment in class where you magically do something you haven't been able to do before. The other night I touched my right elbow to my left knee in yoga. Talk about a "holy crap I just did that!" moment. A year and a half ago, this wasn't me. At all. But it is now and suddenly, I can't see my life without it. I actually love my body for once. Cause it's a beast. 

I've been really wanting to say all of this. And I thought about doing different posts, but I realized that it all comes down to one thing - it's a good life. At the end of the day, we have a good life. Your life is half what happens to you and half how you deal with it. I choose to look at everything we have and not ignore the bad things, but rather find the good that came from them.  The funny thing is that I looked up zen on google and UrbanDictionary.com (just go with me here) said that zen can be thought of as a total state of focus that incorporates a total togetherness of body and mind. I think I've found that. I've found the zen in my Zinn life (ha). 

Happy Thursday folks.  I hope you find the zen in your life!  


1 comment:

  1. I loved reading this post so much! It is easy to get caught up in thinking about the future, comparing ourselves with others, etc. rather than taking time to look at and truly appreciate where our lives are currently! Also, fun that your last name is basically zen. :)

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